Well, I would just rather be at home watching Transformers, is all. Movie, television show, whatever; I could take Megatron out of the nerd case and play with him, too. It's all good as long as it transforms; as long as it ain't here, doing this. Some days - and these days usually occur in summer - your head is just elsewhere. Permanently, systematically sitting in the lawn chair of the mind, with sunglasses on and eyes closed. Trouble being, these days are coming faster and more furious than ever. You can only sit through so many PowerPoint decks where you're told that the new BlackBerry is targeted at consumers as well as business clients - hint for the non-indoctrinated, they all are - before you realize that you're bored outta your fuckin' mind.

So, me and Allison Reid lit out of Dodge, hit the 'Bizzle for an hour and considered the situation, and the situation considered us right back. It seems that you don't ever really reach a "turning point" per se, but rather make a series of intelligent decisions that slowly and inexorably trend you towards the place where you are now, good or bad (or utterly without bias). Then you wake up and you're 32 and HOLY SHIT, YOU'RE 32 and you're here, not there, and nobody ever even asked your opinion.

The other day I was on Demetre's set again - photographs forthcoming, though I feel this weekend's shooting did not lend the spectacular visual gravitas of last weekend's shooting - and I spent the morning as a deep-background extra in a funeral scene, talking to myself, and the afternoon as a P.A./set runner/man about town, Millennium Falconing a TTC bus and sort of trying not to get killed. These things are line with how I usually spend my Sundays. At around 4:30 I was in the parking lot of the Loblaws at Christie and Dupont, trying to start a car that would not start, and faced with about a 30 minute walk back to Demetre's place and the pizza that I had personally ordered but not yet had a chance to sample, and it sort of reminded me of an adventure, or at least a good time. The sun was going down. The movie got done, and now I'm surprisingly hungry to be on to the next thing, if and when and whatever that is.